Theo has grown lots!!!!! He put on two kilos in his first month. (don't know how many pounds that would be). He is now 5400gr.
My boys all have had a high temp and a really bad cold. Even Theo got the horrid virus. I was a wreck. I kept thinking I was going to lose him. I know.... I was being silly but I kept thinking.... he's too little ... he can't tell me what's wrong... what if I can't understand if he feels really bad? He still has a bit of a cough. We do aerosol 6 times a day. (think doc. was slightly over the top).
As I kept saying.... I kept my pregnancy a secret.... and as I said some found out anyway. However.... there were some people that really didn't know anything about it.
A friend that I used to work with ....was at the doctors... she saw Theo and her jaw dropped!
Theo's doc. saw me walk into her room and screamed with joy .... "is he yours?????" She then hugged me so hard!
When I walked out of the docs. I met one of our friends that I hadnt seen for ages. I said "Theo say hello" My friend said...."have I missed something?"
Seeing people looking at us with joy is ever so important for us. It's like a recognition that people really do understand.... (or at least try to understand) what I (we) went through during the whole pregnancy. It's not just a case of.... "oh how lovely.... you've got a living baby now get on with it".
I have also found that I am a different mother. I feel like I'm at my first pregnancy again. I sometimes think... oh my god... what do I do?
I never put him down during the day when he is asleep. I always have him sleeping in my arms. He's with me 24 - 7. Something that hardly ever happened with Luca and Calogero. I was quite a firm mummy.
I just think.... well maybe it is wrong having him sleep in my arms.... maybe it is wrong to pick him up all the time.... but then I think.... who's ever going to give me back his these days of his life? Time goes past so fast that I'm going to find him running around and he'll be the one not wanting hugs and cuddles.
My house is a mess.... I'm a physical mess.... WHO CARES! :D I've been waiting 9 months for a live, healthy baby.... now he's here I want to make the most of it while he's still little.
