22 weeks...

:( had a little visit in A&E

Well I'll tell you it all from the begining.

I went for a vaginal swab one morning.  It all went well.  Then came home. I felt quite tired.  Had a lie down.  Went to the toilet.  Wiped myself... and there is was..... mucus mixed with a bit of blood.  My blood went cold and a thousand thoughts crossed my mind.

I phone my doc.  Abroad.  ABROAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  eh??????!!!!!

I then think I have to have this checked out.  I had no intention of going to the A&E near here.  It's the hospital my baby angel was born in.  So hubby and I got in the car and an hour and a half later we were in A&E in the hospital I "HOPE" to give birth in.  After a two hour wait.... and a screaming new baby born as we were waiting...... we went in and doc gave me a check over.  Everything was fine.  No blood to be seen.  Baby was fine..... (I already knew that though because the first thing I did was use the doppler and heard the heartbeat.  He was kicking away too!)

At the end of my scare the doc said that it was probably all to do with the swab that morning and not to worry.

Our journey back home was much more comforting.  Smiles had by all.  I left my boys at home and they were worried sick when we left them.  When we got home they were happy to here the good news.

Changing the subject.... well to be honest I should dedicate it a new post .... but then that would be giving it too much importance.... so I won't.

The day after my scare.... I get a phone call.  Someone I hardly ever talk to on the phone.  I know this person.  I wouldn't actually call her a friend.  Anyway the phone call goes like this:

- Heeellloooooooooo
ME- oh hi!
-how are you?
Me: fine thanks
- is what I've heard true?
Me: depends on what you've heard
- have you got a bump?
Me: (...........................)
Me: who told you?  I haven't been going out.... I haven't spoken to anyone..... I think anyone would understand that even if it is true, just maybe I don't want to talk about it and I want to live this my way.
- oh ok.  As long as your ok.
Me: couldn't be better (sarcastically said).

I just can't believe it!!!!!!!!

I can actually understand who could have let our big secret out.  Two, so called friends of ours came to our house to say goodbye as they were going back home after they're holidays.  I wasn't expecting them.  Anyway.... one of them pointed to my bump and said.... "I'm not that good at observing".  I answered if they could please ignore it..... I don't want to talk about it.  If someone would have said that to me I would have understood.

What do they do?

They walk out of my house and tell everyone in the bloody village!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok..... I understand.... they are probably happy for us and wanted to tell everyone.  I want to scream it out to the whole world but don't!!!!!!!!!!  Their Happiness doesn't make mine!

anyway...... I'm sure I'm going to have many other phone calls during this week.  News goes round VERY quickly in this village.

Even the phone call is just  beyond me.  Would you really phone someone to ask if what they heard is true?  You know my past story.  You know how much I was hurting.  If it's true.... then be happy for me without being nosey.  If it's not true.... well only time will tell.

Curiosity Killed the Cat!