First ever post

I did a home pregnancy test today.  Result : Positive!

So this is it.  I'm so scared.

Scared this dream will turn into a nightmare.  Scared that my rainbow will turn into another storm.

I gave little "minu" a pep talk.  "If you're here it's for keeps!"  Do you think he's going to listen to me?

A lot of thoughts came into my head today.  Am I going to die?  How am I going to cope?  Am I normal?
Is it normal to have these thoughts?

I have my first docs. appointment with my new doc. on wednesday.  Fingers crossed that will go good.

I read Franchesca Cox's Mantra today..... it says ..... " I deserve this. It's okay to dream, It's okay to hope. Pregnancy will be and can be beautiful - for as many days that will be"  I hope Franchesca won't mind me copying her mantra.

I hope to take each day as it comes.

I warn you this is going to be a blog full of anxious thoughts and of me being paranoid.