1st doctors appointment.

We went for our first doctors appiontment with hope and a little excitement.  We came out all but excited and hopeful.

When I lost my daughter I had blood work done on myself to see if there was anything that could have led to my baby's death.  Unfortunately the blood work wasn't adviced by my old doctor but by a doctor specialized in Pregnancys at risk.

So I did the blood work, wrote the doctor the results and she told me that by my results my baby had died because of trombophilia and she adviced me to go to a doc that specialized in pregnancies at risk.  I didn't go thinking that it wasn't necessary at that time.

When I went into the doctor's office I knew I had picked the right doctor.  It was my turn to see him and I was worried but excited.

We went in and I told him a little bit about my pregnancy history.  I told him about my loss.  I then handed him the blood work results.  At this point the doctor became quite serious.  He said that my LAC Lupus anticoagulant was too high.  Effects of LAC in pregnancy is baby loss.  LAC's affects on the mother is that she may suffer from a heart attack and stroke.

The doctor said that most blood work results on LAC arent always accurate, so there maybe a mistake the only thing is the test has to be reconfirmed when I'm not pregnant or at least three months after a pregnancy. That is impossibile now as you all know.

He said I should have gone to see him before the pregnancy.  He's definately right.  I should have.  I feel like an irresponsable mother.  But I also thought that.... maybe this is the way it should have gone because I know full well that if I had gone before a pregnancy I don't think we would ever have tried for another baby.

So the doctor has given me Heparin treatment.  I have to have an injection everyday.

I did an internal scan.  We saw the uterine gestational chamber.   I'm only 5 or 6 weeks so it's too early to see a heartbeat.  I'm also having HCG blood work done to see if the pregnancy is going well.  

Well that's about it on my update.  

all very confusing to me.  I never did think a new pregnancy after a loss would be easy..... I didn't think it would be this bad though.