A Theo update...

... I feel like I'm on cloud nine!!!!!

Theo has grown lots!!!!!  He put on two kilos in his first month.  (don't know how many pounds that would be).  He is now 5400gr.  

My boys all have had a high temp and a really bad cold.  Even Theo got the horrid virus.  I was a wreck.  I kept thinking I was going to lose him.  I know.... I was being silly but I kept thinking.... he's too little ... he can't tell me what's wrong... what if I can't understand if he feels really bad?  He still has a bit of a cough.  We do aerosol 6 times a day.  (think doc. was slightly over the top).

As I kept saying.... I  kept my pregnancy a secret.... and as I said some found out anyway.  However.... there were some people that really didn't know anything about it.  

A friend that I used to work with ....was at the doctors... she saw Theo and her jaw dropped!  

Theo's doc. saw me walk into her room and screamed with joy .... "is he yours?????"  She then hugged me so hard!

When I walked out of the docs. I met one of our friends that I hadnt seen for ages.  I said "Theo say hello"  My friend said...."have I missed something?"

Seeing people looking at us with joy is ever so important for us.  It's like a recognition that people really do understand.... (or at least try to understand) what I (we) went through during the whole pregnancy.  It's not just a case of.... "oh how lovely.... you've got a living baby now get on with it".

I have also found that I am a different mother.  I feel like I'm at my first pregnancy again.  I sometimes think... oh my god... what do I do?  

I never put him down during the day when he is asleep.  I always have him sleeping in my arms.  He's with me 24 - 7.  Something that hardly ever happened with Luca and Calogero.  I was quite a firm mummy.  

I just think.... well maybe it is wrong having him sleep in my arms.... maybe it is wrong to pick him up all the time.... but then I think.... who's ever going to give me back his these days of his life?  Time goes past so fast that I'm going to find him running around and he'll be the one not wanting hugs and cuddles.  

My house is a mess.... I'm a physical mess.... WHO CARES!  :D   I've been waiting 9 months for a live, healthy baby.... now he's here I want to make the most of it while he's still little.  

Those special kind of people ....

you only meet on the internet... and they make you feel extra special.

THANK YOU SARITA!

Sarita sent us a baby sleeper and sme stickers for my boys.

Can't thank you enough.... thank you so much for your thoughts and prayers during my pregnancy.

big hugs and kisses.

2nd january 23.40......

He came into the world kicking and crying. Breathing with a strong heartbeat.

Theo John, Thea Caterina's baby brother arrived safe and sound in our arms.

I had a very fast labour and I am sure .... Positive...... With all my heart that Thea was there with us .... And she was the one who put that little man on me maybe even saying "he's here mummy!  Keep smiling!"  She is so special and so is this little bundle of joy she gave us.

Whilst I was lying in the hospital bed in the observation room after giving birth.... With Theo starting to breast feed I heard the most beautiful song coming from the doctors rooms. "In the arms of an angel". Now try telling me it was just a coincidence and I'll tell you you're wrong!!!!


Sarita now you know who I am.  You've been so kind to me sending me a tag for Thea and you are the only one that sends her a birthday card on the 25th of March. Maybe she wanted you to be the only one to follow me in my pregnancy. Thank you for the support and prayers. Great big hug coming your way and a great big hug for your daughter meridth rose.

I hope to write theo's birth story soon

Mariahappywithherthreeboysandherangelalwaystakibgcareofher

40 weeks...

I did my glucose test and I don't seem to have gestational diabetes.  So that's not the reason for all the extra liquid I have.

I am in hospital everyday for check ups..... everything seems ok.

On the 2nd .... if nothing happens before..... I should go into hospital.

I tired..... worried... and I would love to have baby in my arms safe and sound.

I really do hope the next update will be a birth announcement.

God help baby and me.

Thank you for being part of my pregnancy....I hope this blog has helped other babyloss mums in there pregnancy.

Happy New Year you all

38 + 39 weeks....

Well as I said nothing goes as planned.

I'm currently in our b&b.

Went for docs appointment last week and baby has flipped.  So it's just a matter of waiting.  Doc. wants me to have frequent monitoring to see if I have any contractions and if the baby is doing well.

He then said that I should go into hospital at 40 weeks if baby is not born before and have frequent check ups making it present that my pregnancy is high risk and that I lost my baby at 36 weeks in my last pregnancy.


Well I went to hospital ... had various monitoring for contractions.... I have been going for the past three days every two days.  A doc didn't actually believe that baby had flipped and said that he wanted to give me a scan.  He did and said that I had polydramnios.  Too much amniotic liquid.

The doc in the hospital didn't seem that worried about it.  He just said come back in about three days for monitoring.  I went back the day after and abother doc said exactly the same thing.

I have read up on internet about polydramnios.  I suppose I shouldn't have.

Polydramnious usually occurs when baby has gastrointestinal defects, if mother has gestational diabetes and other things.

I called my doc to let him know.  He didn't seem very worried about it.  He told me to do another glucose test.  I went to see if I could do the test and the laboratory is closed for christmas holidays!

Im quite worried as I had polydramnios for my last pregnancy too.

I would love to know what's going on inside my bump.  If baby is ok.  I really hope everything will go well.  I'm SO scared.

hello 37 weeks......

Never did I ever think in the month of April straight after my pregnancy test that I would ever make 37 weeks.

I went to the hospital this week.

I had blood work done, spoke with the doc there, they did other test..... so IF i have to have a c section then they already have everything ready for me.

I also had monitering done.  There were one or two contractions but nothing painful or to think I were to go into labour shortly.

Baby is still breach :(

At this point thought...... I think I'm in God's hands and whatever happens I'm here ready for any outcome.  I would prefer a natural birth but if that cant be.... then I'll have to deal with it.

When I went into the maternity ward.  I actually recognized a nurse.  She's from my village.  She helped me a lot telling me where to go for the different tests and who to speak to.  Im actually glad I have her there at least I know who to call if I need something or for anything else.

I found out that the ward doesn't allow children under the age of 12 in the ward.  I hope they don't make it a rule for when the baby is born.... my boys HAVE to see their brother!  They will go mad if they don't see him straight away...... if they don't God knows what they'll be thinking has gone wrong :(

I have to go back in a few days to talk to the anethiasist and do test..... I'll ask then what the rule is for big brothers getting to know their little brother.

I haven't yet got my hospital bag ready yet.   I have everything ready to put into it... but not put them in.  I don't feel like putting anything in there yet.  It's as if I delay it.... then I won't jinx it!

We have sorted out accomodation.  I think that as soon as I have my last docs appointment then I will be going to stay with my sister in law for a few days.  When school finishes for my boys then they'll came too.... we'll then probably spend christmas in a b&b and wait for our little man to arrive.  Hopefully things will go as planned.  Lately nothing seems to go as planned.

36+1 weeks ........

I got passed it!!!!!

I went to the doctors visit this week.

My little man has grown.  He has actually recuperated the week he was behind from the begining of the pregnancy!

Glucose is fine.  No protiene in my urine.  Everything seems to be going well....

Except for one thing..... HE'S PODALIC!

Hopefully he will turn.  All three of my babies have turned at the end of the pregnancy.  Doc thinks he'll turn but just to be on the safe side he wants me to get blood work done and everything else for a c section so if my waters were to break I would have everything ready in hospital and they could do the c section.

So I have all of this blood work and check ups to do next week.

I finally got round to buying this little man a few things.!
I'm not getting my hopes up .... but .... I can't wait till he's here safe, healthy and alive!